secretlifeofcollege

Should i smile because were friends or cry because i know that's all we'll ever be. for three years now you have made my heart flutter with ease. a smile or a quick witted comment that turns me red. i love you so much, and the bad part is you know this. we have been together, but never together. i will always love you matt.

lately i have not pulled out my camera. idk y.i do not have a creative need at the moment to want to take pictures but maybe soon.

time to time i feel like this. empty with no world around me. that i cant connect with anyone. life is just moving around me and i along for the ride. but i am blind to the surroundings. i not sure if it is depression. i have a life of love around me. or something else. so think it the fact that i lost my twin when i was born. so i get a empty feeling every now and then. i long to be attached or close to someone. the connection you get form being a twin is hard to describe. i was lucky in that my mother had a second set of twins after she had me. my brother. i see very  day what being a twin is like. i wound why is my empty side missing. wh